As the year draws to a close.......

Well, tomorrow is December 1, 2011. I can't believe we have one more month before we ring in 2012. WOW....2012. I remember as a kid, the 2000's seemed so futuristic. Weren't we supposed to have flying car's like the Jetson's by now?

As I look back over this year, a distinct theme seems to be prominent in my thoughts. It is FAMILY.

I have two brothers, 3 sisters, 4 nieces, 7 nephews and a wonderful mother who is the Matriarch of us all. She is on a mission for our church in Salt Lake City, UT and will return home to us at the end of January....just two short months away. Familes are blessed when they have a missionary in the "field" and our family has certainly been blessed this year.

Along with my biological family, I also have three best friends who I consider sisters. One is a friend I have known since I was 4. I don't see her often enough but I know she is family no matter what and she will always reside in my heart. Another is a friend I have had since I was 14 and she has been present at every major milestone of my life. She, as well, secures a special place in my heart. The last is a woman who was a co-worker at my last job but has truly become a sister to me. She is an example to me of selfless service that she constantly bestows upon her family. She also owns a piece of my heart. These women know me as well as my own sisters and I am so grateful that I have been surrounded my whole life with such amazing women who love me and help me to be a better person .

I also have a church family. People who are concerned with my welfare and truly want what is best for me spiritually and temporally. My church family is huge and spans literally across the world. This family takes care of me, in so many ways. This year in particular, I have been very blessed with people in my church and in particular a wonderful Bishop who is inspired by God to counsel and help guide me in my every day life.

I cherish my family. I cherish all of my "families". They come to my rescue, lift me up, take care of me and remind me who I really am. This year has been all about FAMILY and it is my goal to next year serve my "family" as well as they have served me this year.

My Father- Michael G. Tull aka "Mickey"

Exactly 25 years ago today my father passed away. I remember the morning well. The night before, I had 3 of my girlfriends spend the night to celebrate my 16th birthday (we didn't have school the next day). We slept in our family room and something woke me up that morning around 5am. I realized it was cold and was going to put more wood in our woodburning stove and I heard my mother upstairs run from her bedroom into the kitchen to use the phone and all I could hear her say was "Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!" I started to go up the stairs and she met me half-way down the stairs and she said "I can't wake Daddy up". It took a second for me to register and she sat down on the stairs and put her face in her hands and kept saying "Oh no, Oh no, Oh no!" I hugged her and went passed her and into their bedroom. You could tell by looking at my father that he was gone. I walked over to him, felt his face (which was fairly cold) and then kissed him and walked out of the room. At this point my mother was coming back up the stairs and I said "yes, he's gone" and my mother let out a small wail and then quickly composed. She told me to go wake Dustin, Travis and Cammie up. As I started to walk downstairs my grandparents who lived next door came in through the kitchen door and I could hear the sirens of the paramedics coming.

I went downstairs and woke my brothers up. I remember Dustin bolting from his bed and running upstairs and Travis quickly following. I woke Cammie up and then I went to wake my friends up who were sleeping in my family room. I just sat on the floor and said "my father passed away early this morning" and then started crying. I think I literally cried for 5 seconds and then somehow got it together and went back upstairs. I realize now that I left my friends in shock. What a way to wake up!

My mother and brothers were waking my two younger sisters Mandy and Dori up. (Mandy was 10 and Dori was 8) Mandy was particularly close to my father and I remember her yelling "NO!" and completely falling apart. It was a hard scene to watch.

By this time, people from church started filing in. It seemed that our entire ward showed up within the next hour. One of the most traumatic events for me that morning was when my grandmother (my father's mother) got to our house. I was at the front door to meet her. She was clearly distraught and as she came in the door, I tried to give her a hug. She very forcefully pushed me out of the way and screamed "where's my baby?" and ran up our stairs to go into my parents bedroom. I was stunned and I didn't quite know how to react. This was my first insight into what it must feel like to lose a child.

The rest of the day was filled with people. Family, friends, neighbors, co-workers.....just a lot of people until my childhood friend came over with her sisters. I had known Eileen since I was 4 and my father loved her like one of his own girls. She walked into my basement door and I FINALLY fell apart....partly because of how much I knew my father loved her but mostly because I knew she truly felt my pain and loss. I could see it in her eyes and feel it in her hug. My father had been a great influence in her life and that was something we would always share.

That night my entire family slept in my family room. Everyone except me. I wanted to sleep in my own bed and be by myself. I wanted to think about what had happened, what was going to happen, and be alone so I could feel my father's presence. I knew he was there. I knew he was going to still be a presence in my life for as long as I lived.

There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of my father. He was an example to me in so many ways. I often think about what life would be like if he were still here. The advice and counsel he would give me and the talks we would have. I think about how much he would love to be with his grandchildren and how happy he would be around them. I think about everything my family has been through over the years and what he would have done.......and then I realize, he has been here. All along. He knows what we are doing and infact, has helped us through traumatic times. I know he looks down upon his grandchildren and is proud of what they are becoming and laughs at all of the craziness. I am sure he has a part in some of the craziness. There are often times I look at my neices and nephews and feel how much my father loves them.

I am lucky and blessed to feel my father's presence often. I can't wait to one day be re-united with him and know that he has been here with me, watching over me, whispering in my ear, and continuing to be my father even though he is not physically here. I am so blessed to know that I will see him again. Until then, I will continue to do the best that I can in this life, knowing that he and A LOT of other family members are up there watching over us, laughing (probably a lot), and much more involved in our lives than we can even imagine.

I love you Dad.

My Sisters

You may call her "Cameron" however, I call her Cammie. She is 3 years and 5 months younger than me. We grew up sharing a bedroom together and so I know who Cammie really is..... and I remember. She has a soft compassionate heart, a resound, clever and definitive mind, an entertaining and very witty sense of humor and talents beyond even her comprehension. Cammie is brilliant. She is strong-willed and adventurous. Cammie is always up for a fun time......always. Cammie is someone you want to take on vacation with you so you are sure to have a fun time. I love being with Cammie because she truly makes me happier.



You may all call her "Amanda" however, I call her Mandy. She is 5 years and 8 months younger than me but in a lot of ways wiser.....she is what I call an "old soul". She has words of wisdom far beyond her years. If ever I am in real need for advice or to bounce a very serious idea off of someone, I call Mandy. She can calm me when I over-react and make me see the silliness in my actions. I love what Mandy "sees" or interprets and I appreciate her view and love how she gets her point across. We laugh a lot at the silliness of others views and reactions too. Mandy is benevolent. She sees things for what they are and judges fairly. Mandy is beautiful and delightful. I love spending time with Mandy because she makes me laugh and reminds me of who I am.


You may call her "Dori" and so do I :-) She is 7 years and 6 months younger than me. The meaning of the name Dori is "a gift; beloved; adored; gift; gift of God". That is exactly what she is. She is a gift to our family. The last of six children, Dori was not to be left behind and she made sure of it. Dori is devoted. She is the most altruistic person I know. She literally picks you up off the ground and carries you when you cannot will yourself to move. Dori gets things done. She is the best example of a mother, sister and friend anyone could ever have. I love spending time with Dori because she is my "North Star".....I am home when I am with her.

All of my sisters are different but we were planted in the same soil. Together we make an extraordinary garden.

Last Time.......

Okay. So I am going to try to start this blog one last time. I have made a commitment (with myself) to really make an effort to update at least once a week. Honestly, I don't hold out much hope but I have set an alarm on my new android phone to remind me to post.....we'll see what happens.

So a lot has happened in the year and a half that I haven't posted.
I'll just list the highlights.....

I moved to an apartment in Fairfax and lived with my friend Sean for a couple of months, (yes.....platonic....get your minds out of the gutter)


I moved my best-friend Brenda from California in March to live in my apt bldg...... one floor above me (BEST 6 day road-trip ever.....NOT),


I quit my job and I started a business Maid Especially For You (www.maidespecially.com),

I turned 40 and had the BEST birthday ever,

We sent my mother on a mission to SLC (to the Church and Family History bldg),






I attended my forever friend Christina Wolfe's baptism,


I went on the 2nd Annual Myrtle Beach Extravaganza with my cousin Michelle (also during BIKE WEEK),








My friend Sean moved out and Brenda and her newborn Colton moved into my apartment in July,










I attended my brother Travis's wedding in Utah,


oh....and I got hit by an SUV while walking across the street. I have pics but they are not appropriate to post. (Yah.....that was the best ever) It's been a busy year and a half and I am SURE I am leaving out some really fantastic things that happened.




I have started watching a little more Judge Judy than is acceptable and somewhere deep down inside, I wish she was my grandmother. I also like the show on BRAVO called "Flipping Out". That Jeff just cracks me up.

"The Keeper of My Heart" is still "The Keeper of My Heart" and he has sworn to take care of me in my old age if I never get married. His idea.....all on his own. He said I could move in with him, his wife and kids. (He is currently 8 years old) So, I just don't think I will ever get married because I want to live with him in my "old age". He loves Colton and is so dang cute with him. I ADORE this kid and I could hang out with him 24/7. He will always be "The Keeper of My Heart."





So....stay tuned for more "Adventures of Yaya". I can almost guarantee that you will not be disappointed. Especially with how things have been going lately. AHHHHH...it feels so good to be blogging again ;-)